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[ Living together with TRIGGER wasn't something he thought he would ever do, and if asked this time last year, he would have said that it was impossible. But, the way things have aligned were impossibly less than perfect, and here they are -- A month or so into living together in the same house. There have been spats, of course, but -- ... He wishes he could say that it was as impossible as he thought it would be. It's warm, here. Interactions when waking up and going to sleep and eating and coming home are less stilted. It's almost as if he can take his mask off when behind closed doors -- Not just the one of the perfect Modern-day Angel, but the sharp and cold and uncaring one covering up everything he's pushed down.

It's a saturday that they don't have anything lined up for work. Kaoru won't let him go out and do anything, tells him he needs time to himself to unwind, less he wants to end up in the hospital again. This has him idly straightening things up around the house, making stir-crazy circles in absence of anything else to do. Gaku's left a jacket in the living room, and after making a snide comment about his organizational skills to nobody but himself, he opts to bringing it back to his room for him.

Like a proper older sibling, he knocks and immediately lets himself in, with little respect for what the man inside could be doing. ]

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[ It feels ... strange. It hurts, yes -- It stings a little and it makes him gasp in quickly, makes him break the kiss just enough that their lips still brush together. Tenn had done ... research on his himself, knew what he was going to have to do to make this not be incredibly horrific. So, he tries to relax, he lets his eyes flit closed even if he wants to see Gaku above him, breathes deeply and clings harshly as Gaku works him loose. ]

[Gaku eases his finger in deeper once he feels Tenn relax, still moving in the slightest of increments, taking it slow enough that it's entirely possible Tenn might think he's doing this to tease him.]

Tenn, if you're not going to look at me, you have to at least tell me how it feels.

[he tries to keep some of that sniping edge to his voice, despite how soft it is, attempting to hide his own nervousness at this whole situation— at Tenn allowing him to do this, to spread him open in the most intimate way possible and leave nothing between the two of them. he tries curling his finger, once it's in far enough, not too much, but enough to see if he can add in another yet.]

[ That aside makes him want to hit Gaku. He knows that Gaku is telling him to tell him how it feels because it's something that Tenn would never do, but -- in this situation, that just makes him flush and squirm.

...Maybe he will, then. Maybe he will, just to show that Gaku isn't the boss, here. He opens his mouth, but --- The way that Gaku curls his finger hits him just right and makes his body jolt with pleasure, makes the word he'd begun forming shatter into a moan. ]

...

Do that again-

This?

[Gaku's attention is immediately focused in on Tenn's reaction, the way his back arches and the sound that tumbles out of his mouth unguarded. he repeats the motion again, his finger seeking out that spot again to rub against it carefully.]

[ His only response is another keen of pleasure, another squirm and shift of his hips -- downwards, this time, almost if he's begging for more with just his body. He tries to bring a hand up to cover his mouth, again, embarrassed at how loud he's being with just this -- ]

[of course, Gaku intercepts that hand with his own, grabbing Tenn's wrist and pinning it to the mattress.]

Tenn, I want you to talk to me. [he says it at the same moment he pushes a second finger in, his eyes fixed on Tenn's expectantly.]

[ There's something electric as his wrist is grasped, as it's pinned down. It makes him shudder, a little -- He barely has time to address that he liked Gaku being rough with him like that before another finger is pushed inside of him, before Gaku makes that cocky request. He gasps at the feeling of being stretched -- It still hurts, still stings, but the way he's being touched inside almost overrides that. ]

Talk to you ... - What do you expect me to say, at a time like this --

[ His voice is tight, he's trying too hard to hold himself together. ]

[Gaku keeps moving his fingers, carefully stretching Tenn open while being sure to balance it out with glancing touches to that spot that makes the other squirm and writhe under him.]

You've been thinking about me doing this to you, right? In that past few days. What else have you been thinking about me?

[he tries to keep his tone cool and assertive, but can't help the way his own arousal keeps slipping in, giving away just how turned on seeing Tenn like this is making him.]

[ Hearing Gaku talk like that makes him squirm just as much. Having all of his desires be put into the air like that is toeing the lines of too uncomfortable and he presses his lips together tight, turning his head to the side. He tips his head back and breathes deep in pleasure as he's touched again, making his mental footing uneasy as he tries to sneak around what Gaku is asking.

The largest part of him wants to shoot venom, wants to say something like That you need to shut up, but the last thing in the world that he wants, right now, is to ruin this mood. ]

You aren't -- my last choice, for this - ...

[ Does that count--?! ]

Hah ... I'm flattered.

[that really isn't what he was looking for but it's so quintessentially Tenn that Gaku can't help the way a smile pulls at his lips. it was a big reach, anyway, expecting Tenn to actually be able to voice his desires. he can let Tenn off the hook, for the moment, leaning down to catch his lips again as he tries spreading his fingers, just a little, to work him further open.]

[ Gaku's probably doing this on purpose, Tenn thinks -- Kissing him whenever he makes some kind of movement that makes him gasp, makes him react. It's slightly embarrassing, but ... He'd have to be blind not to notice just how much his reactions are turning Gaku on, and that leaves him with a sense of pride that almost makes him want to do it more, wants to see how far he can push Gaku in wanting him before he does something interesting.

He breaks the kiss, but once again, just enough that their lips still brush when he speaks. ]

What have you been thinking about, Gaku...?

[Gaku murmurs softly when Tenn pulls away, not exactly happy that he's broken the kiss, but if this is how Tenn wants to play things, he'll go along with it.]

Just this ... you under me, completely exposed. You must trust me a lot to let me do this kind of thing— even if you usually never let me take care of you.

[as if to emphasize that point, he brushes against Tenn's prostate again, watching him almost greedily for more of those reactions.]

[ It's frustrating how not good at the game he's trying to play he is.

He doesn't know how to respond to that. It's -- almost mortifying, thinking about just how exposed he is, both mentally and physically. It's even more mortifying to have Gaku call it out, to have him call out the trust in him that he has. It's something he's said aloud, but only after awhile of psyching himself up to say it. Having Gaku say it so easily, so readily --- not only does he not know how to respond, he almost can't. He flushes deep, opening his mouth to nothing --

--That is, until Gaku brushes that bundle of nerves again, forcing a squeak of pleasure out of him in the form of the other's name, making him twitch upwards. ]

Gaku--!

[ He closes the space between their mouths again, this time biting Gaku's bottom lip, almost as a form of retribution for what he'd just done. ]

[that's the kind of reaction Gaku was looking for, and can't respond in any way that isn't an obvious expression of just how turned on he is. he groans into Tenn's mouth, pressing him down further into the mattress as he pushes another finger inside. it's less careful than the first two, more hurried, Gaku's patience with their current situation obviously starting to run out.]

Tenn— [his voice is strained when he speaks now, breath coming out in harsh pants against Tenn's lips.]

I want you.

[ That one hurts -- his body is small and Gaku's hands are large and a third finger just suddenly on his first time is dangerously close to his limit. He gasps, trying to mask the pain as another gasp of pleasure because there's no way, no way that he's going to let Gaku even consider stopping.

The gravel in Gaku's voice sends a tingle up his spine, the way he says his name makes him shudder and he swallows hard, tipping his head to the side from the embarrassment of the words that come out of his mouth next. ]

...

What are you waiting for, then-? Take me.

[Tenn really doesn't have any place to poke fun at Gaku's banal taste in porn when he's dropping lines like that. of course, Gaku's still respond to them, so it's hard to say who the more embarrassing one is here.

he presses his face to the side of Tenn's neck when the other turns his head, trying to snatch back the reins of his self-control. it's too like Tenn to try to push things in this situation, in any situation, and once again leaving Gaku with the task of trying to keep everything together. there's only so long he can last like this, three fingers deep inside of Tenn and feeling every breath he takes, every tiny shift as Tenn arches his back and tries to relax around the intrusion. Gaku knows he should take more time letting Tenn adjust to this, but. if Tenn's going to goad him on, he'll just have to deal with the consequences.

there's no further warning before he pulls his fingers out, reaching with that same hand to get his dick back out and ready.]

[ The most embarrassing part of all of this is that he almost didn't want that part to stop. Gaku's fingers inside of him, seeking out and attacking that spot that made his skin alight. The man murmuring heinous things into his lips between kisses --- ... It was good. He would never, never in a million years admit just how much he liked that, and part of him knows that he would never have to because Gaku has already read him.

He shudders again, when the fingers are pulled out of him, closing his eyes in anticipation. He doesn't know what to do, here --- doesn't know if he's supposed to say something else. Not knowing what to do, not knowing how to be perfect with this is driving him mad, but that's a quieter thought than the one booming in his head regarding him wanting Gaku to just fucking ruin him. ]

[Gaku lets go of Tenn's wrist, moving both of his hands down to grab his hips and angle him into position. he has to remind himself to keep breathing, keep his movements steady and not just fuck into Tenn as quickly as humanly possible.

that's easier said than done, of course. he means to ask if Tenn's all right one last time, or say something reassuring, but all that he can manage is a low moan, pressing the head of his cock against Tenn's entrance, beginning to push in at a painstakingly gradual pace.]

[ The intensity in which Gaku wants him is something that he can barely parse. He can feel it, though -- feel it radiating off of him. It's almost suffocating - But, he wants more of it.

He parts his lips in a gasp that goes nowhere as Gaku presses into him, raising his hips to roll towards him. The slowness that he's pushed into is just as painstaking for him -- He wants this, he begs with his body because he'd die if those words ever left his mouth - ]

[time seems to slow down, and Gaku knows he must've stopped breathing at some point, the sensation of his lungs burning only fully hitting him once his hips are flush with the curve of Tenn's ass. it's nearly impossible to think around the feeling of Tenn so tight around him, every movement he makes under Gaku doing nothing but encouraging him to just pull out and slam back into him—

it's tempting. it really is, and it's probably not going to take long for him to get there when he does move again, but not yet. he bends down over Tenn, pressing his face into his hair and finally breathing in.]

[ It's overwhelming. The feeling of being filled like this, the sensation of the nerves brushed against, Gaku so close -- Tenn can feel his heartbeat through his chest, can feel their bodies pulsing in time and how much there is to acclimate to all at once is so much it all but makes his eyes unfocus. He trembles when Gaku makes the slightest movement, when he gets even closer and breathes him in -- He, just now, can feel the height of how exposed and wrenched open he is.

His thoughts have stopped -- The buzzing cloud of questions of what to do, how to move, what to say all have quieted and he can't quite tell what it is that they're replaced with.

All he can do, in the moment, is reach up around Gaku's shoulders and neck, breathing out his name almost inaudibly. ]

[Tenn's silence tells Gaku all he needs to know. there's nowhere left for him to hide, laid completely bare underneath him, spread out and split open and allowing Gaku inside in a way no one else has ever been allowed.

Gaku finds himself equally at a loss for words. there's only one response he can give, and he waits it out until he knows the moment is right— when Tenn finally reaches up, hands brushing against his neck and back, Gaku finally moves. it's shallow, barely pulling back out, but even that fraction is enough to make him grit his teeth, teasing a low rumble out of his throat as grinds his hips back up, angling to push his cock in even further.]

[ Even that fraction of a movement is enough to make him gasp, to make his fingertips dig into Gaku's skin. He's -- unbelievably turned on by everything that's happened today, moreso than he has been in his entire life, and his body is sensitive and reactive to even the smallest movements through it. His toes curl in and he raises his leg just so, just enough to make their bodies even the slightest bit closer, just enough to allow him to have more of Gaku. ]

[Tenn's response isn't telling Gaku to stop or slow down, and that's all the go ahead he needs. his will power is in shambles in the face of Tenn naked and wanting underneath him, and when he pulls out this time there's nothing slow or gradual about it, his nails digging into Tenn's skin as he rocks his hips backs. the friction from that alone draws another low moan from Gaku, followed up with an even louder one when he slams back into Tenn, giving him barely any time to react or prepare for the sensation.]

[ He wasn't expecting that.

He wasn't expecting things to escalate this quickly. One moment Gaku was tender and gentle and slow and was giving him time to adjust, the next he was-- ... Too rough. Too fast. It makes his inexperienced body tense and that just makes it hurt more and that rips a sharp yelp out of Tenn's throat. ]