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[ Living together with TRIGGER wasn't something he thought he would ever do, and if asked this time last year, he would have said that it was impossible. But, the way things have aligned were impossibly less than perfect, and here they are -- A month or so into living together in the same house. There have been spats, of course, but -- ... He wishes he could say that it was as impossible as he thought it would be. It's warm, here. Interactions when waking up and going to sleep and eating and coming home are less stilted. It's almost as if he can take his mask off when behind closed doors -- Not just the one of the perfect Modern-day Angel, but the sharp and cold and uncaring one covering up everything he's pushed down.

It's a saturday that they don't have anything lined up for work. Kaoru won't let him go out and do anything, tells him he needs time to himself to unwind, less he wants to end up in the hospital again. This has him idly straightening things up around the house, making stir-crazy circles in absence of anything else to do. Gaku's left a jacket in the living room, and after making a snide comment about his organizational skills to nobody but himself, he opts to bringing it back to his room for him.

Like a proper older sibling, he knocks and immediately lets himself in, with little respect for what the man inside could be doing. ]

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Hah ... I'm flattered.

[that really isn't what he was looking for but it's so quintessentially Tenn that Gaku can't help the way a smile pulls at his lips. it was a big reach, anyway, expecting Tenn to actually be able to voice his desires. he can let Tenn off the hook, for the moment, leaning down to catch his lips again as he tries spreading his fingers, just a little, to work him further open.]

[ Gaku's probably doing this on purpose, Tenn thinks -- Kissing him whenever he makes some kind of movement that makes him gasp, makes him react. It's slightly embarrassing, but ... He'd have to be blind not to notice just how much his reactions are turning Gaku on, and that leaves him with a sense of pride that almost makes him want to do it more, wants to see how far he can push Gaku in wanting him before he does something interesting.

He breaks the kiss, but once again, just enough that their lips still brush when he speaks. ]

What have you been thinking about, Gaku...?

[Gaku murmurs softly when Tenn pulls away, not exactly happy that he's broken the kiss, but if this is how Tenn wants to play things, he'll go along with it.]

Just this ... you under me, completely exposed. You must trust me a lot to let me do this kind of thing— even if you usually never let me take care of you.

[as if to emphasize that point, he brushes against Tenn's prostate again, watching him almost greedily for more of those reactions.]

[ It's frustrating how not good at the game he's trying to play he is.

He doesn't know how to respond to that. It's -- almost mortifying, thinking about just how exposed he is, both mentally and physically. It's even more mortifying to have Gaku call it out, to have him call out the trust in him that he has. It's something he's said aloud, but only after awhile of psyching himself up to say it. Having Gaku say it so easily, so readily --- not only does he not know how to respond, he almost can't. He flushes deep, opening his mouth to nothing --

--That is, until Gaku brushes that bundle of nerves again, forcing a squeak of pleasure out of him in the form of the other's name, making him twitch upwards. ]

Gaku--!

[ He closes the space between their mouths again, this time biting Gaku's bottom lip, almost as a form of retribution for what he'd just done. ]

[that's the kind of reaction Gaku was looking for, and can't respond in any way that isn't an obvious expression of just how turned on he is. he groans into Tenn's mouth, pressing him down further into the mattress as he pushes another finger inside. it's less careful than the first two, more hurried, Gaku's patience with their current situation obviously starting to run out.]

Tenn— [his voice is strained when he speaks now, breath coming out in harsh pants against Tenn's lips.]

I want you.

[ That one hurts -- his body is small and Gaku's hands are large and a third finger just suddenly on his first time is dangerously close to his limit. He gasps, trying to mask the pain as another gasp of pleasure because there's no way, no way that he's going to let Gaku even consider stopping.

The gravel in Gaku's voice sends a tingle up his spine, the way he says his name makes him shudder and he swallows hard, tipping his head to the side from the embarrassment of the words that come out of his mouth next. ]

...

What are you waiting for, then-? Take me.

[Tenn really doesn't have any place to poke fun at Gaku's banal taste in porn when he's dropping lines like that. of course, Gaku's still respond to them, so it's hard to say who the more embarrassing one is here.

he presses his face to the side of Tenn's neck when the other turns his head, trying to snatch back the reins of his self-control. it's too like Tenn to try to push things in this situation, in any situation, and once again leaving Gaku with the task of trying to keep everything together. there's only so long he can last like this, three fingers deep inside of Tenn and feeling every breath he takes, every tiny shift as Tenn arches his back and tries to relax around the intrusion. Gaku knows he should take more time letting Tenn adjust to this, but. if Tenn's going to goad him on, he'll just have to deal with the consequences.

there's no further warning before he pulls his fingers out, reaching with that same hand to get his dick back out and ready.]

[ The most embarrassing part of all of this is that he almost didn't want that part to stop. Gaku's fingers inside of him, seeking out and attacking that spot that made his skin alight. The man murmuring heinous things into his lips between kisses --- ... It was good. He would never, never in a million years admit just how much he liked that, and part of him knows that he would never have to because Gaku has already read him.

He shudders again, when the fingers are pulled out of him, closing his eyes in anticipation. He doesn't know what to do, here --- doesn't know if he's supposed to say something else. Not knowing what to do, not knowing how to be perfect with this is driving him mad, but that's a quieter thought than the one booming in his head regarding him wanting Gaku to just fucking ruin him. ]

[Gaku lets go of Tenn's wrist, moving both of his hands down to grab his hips and angle him into position. he has to remind himself to keep breathing, keep his movements steady and not just fuck into Tenn as quickly as humanly possible.

that's easier said than done, of course. he means to ask if Tenn's all right one last time, or say something reassuring, but all that he can manage is a low moan, pressing the head of his cock against Tenn's entrance, beginning to push in at a painstakingly gradual pace.]

[ The intensity in which Gaku wants him is something that he can barely parse. He can feel it, though -- feel it radiating off of him. It's almost suffocating - But, he wants more of it.

He parts his lips in a gasp that goes nowhere as Gaku presses into him, raising his hips to roll towards him. The slowness that he's pushed into is just as painstaking for him -- He wants this, he begs with his body because he'd die if those words ever left his mouth - ]

[time seems to slow down, and Gaku knows he must've stopped breathing at some point, the sensation of his lungs burning only fully hitting him once his hips are flush with the curve of Tenn's ass. it's nearly impossible to think around the feeling of Tenn so tight around him, every movement he makes under Gaku doing nothing but encouraging him to just pull out and slam back into him—

it's tempting. it really is, and it's probably not going to take long for him to get there when he does move again, but not yet. he bends down over Tenn, pressing his face into his hair and finally breathing in.]

[ It's overwhelming. The feeling of being filled like this, the sensation of the nerves brushed against, Gaku so close -- Tenn can feel his heartbeat through his chest, can feel their bodies pulsing in time and how much there is to acclimate to all at once is so much it all but makes his eyes unfocus. He trembles when Gaku makes the slightest movement, when he gets even closer and breathes him in -- He, just now, can feel the height of how exposed and wrenched open he is.

His thoughts have stopped -- The buzzing cloud of questions of what to do, how to move, what to say all have quieted and he can't quite tell what it is that they're replaced with.

All he can do, in the moment, is reach up around Gaku's shoulders and neck, breathing out his name almost inaudibly. ]

[Tenn's silence tells Gaku all he needs to know. there's nowhere left for him to hide, laid completely bare underneath him, spread out and split open and allowing Gaku inside in a way no one else has ever been allowed.

Gaku finds himself equally at a loss for words. there's only one response he can give, and he waits it out until he knows the moment is right— when Tenn finally reaches up, hands brushing against his neck and back, Gaku finally moves. it's shallow, barely pulling back out, but even that fraction is enough to make him grit his teeth, teasing a low rumble out of his throat as grinds his hips back up, angling to push his cock in even further.]

[ Even that fraction of a movement is enough to make him gasp, to make his fingertips dig into Gaku's skin. He's -- unbelievably turned on by everything that's happened today, moreso than he has been in his entire life, and his body is sensitive and reactive to even the smallest movements through it. His toes curl in and he raises his leg just so, just enough to make their bodies even the slightest bit closer, just enough to allow him to have more of Gaku. ]

[Tenn's response isn't telling Gaku to stop or slow down, and that's all the go ahead he needs. his will power is in shambles in the face of Tenn naked and wanting underneath him, and when he pulls out this time there's nothing slow or gradual about it, his nails digging into Tenn's skin as he rocks his hips backs. the friction from that alone draws another low moan from Gaku, followed up with an even louder one when he slams back into Tenn, giving him barely any time to react or prepare for the sensation.]

[ He wasn't expecting that.

He wasn't expecting things to escalate this quickly. One moment Gaku was tender and gentle and slow and was giving him time to adjust, the next he was-- ... Too rough. Too fast. It makes his inexperienced body tense and that just makes it hurt more and that rips a sharp yelp out of Tenn's throat. ]

[Gaku's equally inexperienced dick wants to just rut into that suddenly increased pressure, but luckily for Tenn, he immediately freezes when he hears his response.]

Fuck— Tenn, are you all right?

[ Tipping his head back, he takes a deep breath -- pushes through the pain before shooting Gaku something halfway between a pout and a glare. ]

Be more gentle! It's my first time-!

[ ---And, after he says that, his cheeks alight in a flush because even though his virginity was called upon, earlier, this is the first time he's said the words "it's my first time". ]

I'm sorry. [at least he sounds properly apologetic, not even taking the ripe opportunity to tease Tenn about his unintentional admittance. he keeps his hips still, moving his head into position to kiss Tenn instead, catching his lips and moving a hand up to cup his face. Gaku's not entirely sure of what he's doing, but he knows that Tenn needs to relax again if they're going to keep moving forward, and kissing him over and over until he goes slack again seems as good of an idea as any.]

[ Even so soon after he'd done something that hurt, having Gaku inside of him and not moving is overwhelming. Being peppered with kisses like this enough to fluster him, to make him gape slightly as he turns his head slightly away. ]

Ah-- Jeez, it's fine. Just ...

[ He can't help but squirm a little, canting his hips and writhing around Gaku's cock because he's still more needy than his body has room for, even with that shoot of pain. ]

[Gaku doesn't stop kissing him, even when Tenn turns his head away, moving his lips down to his jaw, then his neck. he doesn't try to make marks this time, only darting his tongue out occasionally to taste the salt on Tenn's skin, waiting for him to give verbal permission to continue on.]

[ He thinks that it's impossible, maybe, to be any more flushed than he already is. Gaku's trailing kisses make him even more and more flustered, makes him squirm even more. His heart flutters in his chest in a way that he isn't entirely sure how to address but he swallows that down, digging his nails into the skin of Gaku's back, threatening to tug and claw. ]

--Just keep going!

[the way Tenn grabs at him and whines means he's probably comfortable enough to continue, by Gaku's best estimate. the feeling of Tenn's nails on his back is exciting in ways he hasn't thought too hard on before, and he files that information away for later.

for now, he concentrates on slowly beginning to move again— shallowly, barely pulling out, just rolling his hips against Tenn's ass, giving him ample time to adjust to the sensation.]

[ That's better. That's much better. He shudders lightly when Gaku starts to move again in a way that feels good, breathing in a soft and shaking breath. The thought of Gaku driving hard into him, being rough and pounding him into the mattress is ... enticing, but he needs to work to get there --- ]

...

You can't go harder until I say so-

[ ...So, Tenn will just feign control in this. ]

Are you trying to order me around, Tenn?

[it's hard to sound cool and composed when you're literally hard and balls deep in your center, and Gaku doesn't do a very good job it at. he covers up for the clear strain in his voice by shallowly, and with painstaking care, beginning to actually thrust into Tenn— still barely pulling out each time, careful and controlled, but gradually starting to work his way up to bigger movements, the way Tenn needs him to.]